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OKAY. OKAY. LAST POST TODAY, I PROMISE -- or should I say first post today, since it's after midnight here? GAH, I AM RAMBLING ALREADY. THIS WILL WORK JUST FINE, THEN.

I find myself in the strange position of having three--no, four--huge stories in the works. When I say huge, I'm thinking at least upwards of 10K, probably nudging closer to 20K and over. And I'm stumped. Just thinking about ALLLL THE WORDS I'm going to write for them makes me leery of sitting my arse down and getting to it; moreover, I can't seem to decide which one to focus on right now.

So. After much pondering, and deft enabling by

delicatale, to get my writing juices flowing I propose the following: PROMPT ME. I will write drabbles for as many prompts as I get ideas for, and that's a promise. I can't guarantee that every prompt will get filled, BUT I will do my absolute best for as long as I need this exercise. Now, it's half past midnight here right now, so this will happen tomorrow most likely, but. GO ON, YOU GUYS. I WANT TO WAKE UP TO A VERITABLE DELUGE OF PROMPTS! :D

Fandoms: Inception (Arthur/Eames), Sherlock (Sherlock/John, Mycroft/Lestrade (oh god)), H50 (Steve/Danny), XMFC (Charles/Erik), HP (Harry/Draco -- this one is for you,

altri_uccelli, if you fancy it! :))

I did this last year for Christmas, when anyone who wanted a Christmas drabble from me got one. I will very likely do that again this year, so think of this as a wee taster! :D

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If I'm never your hero I can never let you down.*

Oh god, I am torn between Steve/Danny and Charles/Erik... and actually, now that I think on it, it could work really well for Sherlock/John, too... idk WHICHEVER ONE SPEAKS TO YOU. Or twist my arm and I'll actually pick one. DECISIONS ARE HARD.

*Lyric from "Explode" by Patrick Stump. Song and lyrics here... not really suggesting you necessarily try to use the song for the story, just pimping it for my boy PStump. ;)

jhfajhfljkg OH MY GOD, THAT PROMPT. As soon as I read it my stomach honest-to-god jumped so hard. ALSO IT SPEAKS TO ME FOR ALL OF THEM JFHGJSFHGJ I CAN'T CHOOSE OH GOD. But but I think I'm going to make this one Sherlock/John. Because it has the whole John looking up to Sherlock, when in reality it's Sherlock who's worshipping John (head canon).

jhggsjfghlfjgh THE ANGST, OH MY GOD. CAN I MAKE IT HAPPY ENDING, CAN I? BECAUSE JUST THINKING ABOUT THE ANGST IS MAKING ME ALL T______T

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

GOD, I KNOW, RIGHT? I got into a big PStump kick this past week (this happens... every few weeks or so), and I have literally spent days going, "I NEED TO FIND AN EXCUSE TO FEED THIS PROMPT TO NEVE," I shit you not, this is the actual thought I have been having, and then HEY HOW CONVENIENT, NEVE MAKES A PROMPT POST, SWEET.

Dude, totally, Sherlock cannot get over how amazing John is, John is the most amazing person he's ever met, TRUFAX.

I GIVE YOU MY PERMISSION TO WRITE A HAPPY ENDING. ♥ ♥

AHAHAHA US TWO, WHAT EVEN ARE WE. :D :D \0/ \0/ IS THIS EXCELLENT TIMING OR WHAT.

John is trufax the most incredible person Sherlock has ever met, and John likes him, how is this even possible, Sherlock knows for a damn fact that he's a horrible person, terrible human being, all right, all those people can't be wrong, how can anyone like him, but here's John, and John thinks he's amazing, what is that all about--

AND I SHALL LEAVE THE REST OF IT FOR WHEN I ACTUALLY WRITE IT, GAH. /0\

ILU BB THIS IS WHY YOU ARE MY FAVORITE. ♥ ♥

YES!! THIS IS GOING TO BE AMAZING.

...Also I can't stop thinking about that one bit in the show, "Don't make people into heroes, John, heroes don't exist; and if they did, I wouldn't be one of them. "

"Don't make people into heroes, John, heroes don't exist; and if they did, I wouldn't be one of them. "

SO MUCH THIS. THIS IS ACTUALLY GOING TO BE THE BASIS FOR THIS DRABBLE. And of course the irony is that heroes do exist, and John is one of them, and Sherlock knows that in his bones, and it kills him to see someone as good, as amazing as John, think that he, Sherlock, is the definition of a hero, because fuck, how can he even think that, how can he not know that he's so much better than Sherlock, and so very much too good for him. fjhaljghfjgh I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. <3 ANGST, I TELL YOU.

Yiiiiiiisssss, and Sherlock could've said all that out loud instead of what he did say, but for that to happen he would have to actually be emotionally functional, and, you know, he's not, he doesn't know how to handle feeeeeelings so he defaults to being caustic and chilly the way Steve McGarrett yells a lot and punches people. ♥

AND THAT IS WHY I LOVE THEM BOTH SO MUCH. ♥______♥

EMOTIONALLY RETARDED CHARACTERS ARE THE BEST CHARACTERS.

WORD. It occures to me (just now, SOMETIMES I CAN BE SO DENSE, GOOD THING I HAVE YOU TO POINT SHIT OUT TO ME) that all the characters I love to write the most -- Sherlock, Steve, Erik, the ones I find the most fascinating to explore, are all emotionally retarded idiots. THEY ARE SO MUCH FUN TO PICK APART AND STICK TOGETHER AGAIN (WITH JUDICIOUSLY APPLIED JOHN, DANNY AND CHARLES, RESPECTIVELY). ;D

...I think my struggles with trying to cobble together a sentence about how John, Danny, Charles and their ilk are like adorable glue is a sign that I need sleep....

You go to sleep, bb! DREAM OF EMOTIONALLY RETARDED BOYS AND THEIR LONG-SUFFERING PARTNERS. <3

I SHALL. ♥

Sherlock looks at John's slumped shoulders, the flat, pinched line of his mouth, and something cold and horrible curls up in his gut.

"I've disappointed you," he says, as neutrally as he knows how.

John laughs mirthlessly, doesn't bother denying what they both know. "That's good, that's a good deduction, that," he says bitterly.

John, disappointed in him. His blood, never his best friend, condenses to frozen sludge in his veins. "Don't make people into heroes, John, heroes don't exist; and if they did, I wouldn't be one of them," he snaps, levelly, striking back before John can say anything more, can drive it home just how little Sherlock could possibly hope to gain John's forgiveness, his affections. It was stupid, anyway, stupid to think of it. He should have seen it coming; should have snipped it in the bud. He could see that hero-worship grow in John, case after case, day after day, with every "That was amazing" that John let slip carelessly, uncaring what it meant, for himself.

He can't actually look at John after that, has to create a distraction, immediately, regain some worth. He focuses on the Pink Lady's phone, takes it up and starts typing, niggling at the clue until it gives up and reveals itself for him, gives him the means to see that look in John's eyes again.

He should have known better, an old addict like himself. He knows the signs; how has he let John slip so far under his skin that Sherlock craves him like he craves another hit, dreads John's disappointment like a month without a new case, has to push himself further and further just to have John look at him like that again, like he's worth something, like he's incredible, like he isn't just a pathetic excuse for a human being.

Which he is; he knows it. Everyone he's ever met can't be wrong, and John is just an anomaly, a wonderful, precious anomaly that Sherlock wants to protect, cultivate, never let down. But he can't. He isn't capable of that, of keeping something like that, nurturing it and having it for his own. How, how could John possibly have it so wrong; the dichotomy eats at him, aches somewhere behind his breastbone. How could John think Sherlock is the hero in this partnership? How could he not know what he is, how could he think so little of himself as to compare what he is to Sherlock? Sherlock wasn't lying when he told John that he would never be one of the heroes, but he was lying through his teeth when he said that heroes didn't exist, so plainly that he doesn't know how something didn't strike him down for it. Because it's blindingly obvious that heroes do exist -- he sees the proof every day; it lives with him, for goodness' sake, works with him, protects him, makes the world worth saving.

The fact that John is so blind to the truth makes Sherlock sick inside. Because he knows, like he knows that the charcoal traces on the fingers of the left hand of the man who lives across the street from them mean that he's a left-handed artist who has just sold his first artwork to a major gallery, that he is going to let John down. That sooner or later, John will find out that apart from his brilliant brain, Sherlock is nothing, worthless; that without cases to solve and secrets to puzzle out, there's nothing to him.

And yes, Sherlock knows that John will leave him eventually, when he does figure it out; but perhaps Sherlock could postpone the moment by taking the pains to stop John's delusions, that Sherlock is anything approximating a hero, anything as good and amazing and incredible and worthy of admiration as John is himself. If Sherlock isn't John's hero, he can never let him down.

Sherlock can live with himself quite well enough; he doesn't bother lying to himself about what he is, and just how unreachable that makes John. Because John, he deserves so much better than a broken man holding the world's second-finest brain (he isn't even the best; no, Mycroft is, as always, just that one step further up from him, and god, does that sting). There's nothing he can offer John that would be worthy, and he knows it. He can live with that. As long as he has even a fraction of John's attention, John's presence in his life, it'll be enough.

With that in mind, he sets his one asset firmly on finding Moriarty, and disposing of him before Moriarty can succeed in his task and show John just what Sherlock really is. Because, to Sherlock's surprise, there is one thing in this world he would mind losing, and mind strongly enough to make sure it never happens -- even if it means depriving himself of John's admiration, that misguided hero-worship that has brightened his life ever since John walked into it. Besides, Sherlock himself holds more than enough hero-worship to balance it out.

Holy crap, I'd clear forgotten about this! What a nice surprise!

I love how you dissect that moment from the canon, peel back the surface layer and explore what's underneath... it reads really true for me.

I think most of my feelings about this have already been expressed in the above thread, but I'm loving seeing this all fleshed-out. FANTASTIC WORK, BABE. <3 <3 <3

...I mean, I am totally not awake right now, what are you talking about. >.>

hgljhfglah WHAT ARE YOU STILL DOING UP, I was sure you wouldn't read this till the morning! :D But yay! It's just, this prompt, SO COMPELLING. ~~Like Chris' chest.~~ And I seem to be having a Sherlock day, so. <3

Go to bed, love! <3

Hahaha, yeeeeaaahh, I was up later than I meant to. Kept getting distracted... I got all caught up watching Once Upon A Time, and I was reading that really long Steve-has-leukemia fic, and then

delicatale friended me, and I stalked her journal a little bit, and then I stalked my own journal a little bit (every time someone friends me I have this weird compulsion to look at my recent entries and see what kind of impression people are getting of me based on my journal), and then I friended her back... and I was just getting ready to call it a night when I got the email notification for this, and I couldn't not read and comment right away!

Anyway, it's just as well I suppose... it took me forever to fall asleep, argh. >_

I've been meaning to watch that! I have it downloaded and everything, just have to get in the mood to watch it! Maybe on Sunday...

What did you think of the long Steve-has-leukemia fic? I have that bookmarked, but

sheafrotherdon said she cried several times during it, and to read it when we're alone, and I'm worried it's going to really get me down. And my headspace is a bit ugh because of my own Time Of Power and the stupid cold (although I have to admit it's getting better), and I'm not sure whether to read it now or let it rest a bit. I haven't even started the cop!Erik AU edits, because they're going to be brutal, and I'm worried I'm going to want to scrap like half of it. D:

Oh, I thought

delicatale would have friended you a while back -- I always talk about you, see, especially when it comes to writing H50 with her. >.>;; Anyway.

I'm still so happy you liked it, darling! <3 It kind of... happened. A bit of word vomit there, so I'm glad it made sense!

Yeah, Once Upon A Time is okay. It's getting better. I watched the first episode and was so unimpressed I didn't bother continuing... but then

queenklu kept mentioning it, and then my bff/soulmate was watching it and finding it likeable enough, so I figured I'd give it another chance (I mean, pilots are always kind of crap, aren't they). And... yeah. It gets better. On the whole it's a bit hokey and the writing and acting are sometimes questionable, but we're starting to get some interesting pieces of this world's interpretation of the fairy tales, and some of the characters are getting interesting backstory... things are all just generally getting fleshed out in a way that is an improvement. And Rumplestiltskin (Robert Carlyle) is FAMAZING, definitely best character in the show, I kind of adore him. (And as Mr. Gold I, uh, find him kind of hot, actually. @_@)

Re the leukemia story... yeah, I didn't actually cry, but I got very worried. I may just have a tinier soul than some people, idk... or... some people responded very personally to the story due to their experiences with the disease. I have family members who have died of cancer, but they lived some distance away from me and I didn't see them often, didn't have to sit and watch them waste away every day. I've never known anyone with leukemia. ...Also I was somewhat distracted by flaws in the writing. ^_^;; The writer's portrayal of the disease and Steve's difficulties dealing with it and Danny's difficulties dealing with it are very detailed and realistic... more than likely they're writing from experience.

Idk... it's very long, it's a long distressing haul, but... well,

sheafrotherdon already spoiled that it has a happy ending. And for all that it's full of sadness and sickness and pain, it's full of love and caring and tenderness, too.

Let me know if you need help with the edits, yeah?

I'm gonna give it a go, if only because of the characters (The Mad Hatter is played by Sebastian Stan, a.k.a. Bucky Barnes, and I've, um. Kind of been obsessed with him ever since the film. I KNOW I'M SHALLOW, OKAY, I'M ALL RIGHT WITH THAT. >.>;;)

Well tbh if

sheafrotherdon hadn't said that it had a happy ending, I wouldn't even think about reading it. Um. You know the kind of sap I am; I wouldn't have been able to handle it. IDK, there's some amazing stories in the exchange, but there are also some, um. Not so amazing ones, especially in terms of writing. It's one thing that puts me off exchanges, most of the time.

I will, love! I seriously am scared to even open the doc, god. D: D: I'm going to make a tentative start tomorrow, though, I have decided. I think I have an idea about the science; we'll see if that works. GODDD. /0\ /0\

a;skghslkfalsjfklsj SEBASTIAN STAN IS IN IT? I HAD NOT HEARD THAT! ...Clearly he's not shown up yet. I WOULD HAVE NOTICED.

Honey, I think it's totally valid to watch just for him. He's worth being shallow for. I've been kind of in love with his moody dark eyes since Kings.

*pets* Eeeeeeeeverything will be ooooooookay. ^_^

It is ENTIRELY LIKELY that I am wrong. In fact, the more I look, the higher the chances are that I'm wrong, but I was basing my assumption on this:

on this post. In fact, I've no idea how I've been left with the impression that this had anything at all to do with Once Upon A Time. Huh. Weird.

HE IS PRETTY DAMN AWESOME, and makes a fabulous Bucky. <3<3<3

Aaawwww, now I am all disappoint. :(

Hahaha, he does make a fabulous Bucky, for re-imagined values of Bucky. In the comics Bucky is a kid sidekick, like Robin the Boy Wonder, so when Steve first calls him by his nickname in the movie I just about snorfled all over myself. Changing his age was a good move, though, a wee child had no place in that movie. A sexy best friend, however... EXCELLENT.

I KNOW, SO AM I. D: I'd been looking forward to watching that...

God, I ship Steve/Bucky so fucking hard based on that film. SO HARD. First time I'm shipping a character equally with two different characters. So far I've always been OTP IS OTP, but now I ship Steve/Bucky just as hard as Steve/Tony. And don't even get me started on Bucky/Steve/Tony...

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