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[sirona_fics]

I have somehow found myself with 8,400-odd words of a Clint/Phil fic (cleverly titled Phil's shirts are coul, which, I SERIOUSLY CANNOT EVEN /0\). And now I'm freaking the fuck out. Because this is a brand new paring for me, and okay, I've watched and re-watched the source material, but it always takes time to find the character voices that work for us, right? So yes, this is me panicking that it's rubbish/not making any sense/too much of one thing and not enough of another/completely and utterly OOC. And let's be honest, I've read precisely three Clint/Phil fics, all of which have struck a hell of a chord and I fucking love with all my heart, none of which have utilised the characterisation I'm aiming for (to this extent). This means that a) it it going to be a monumental failure, or b) it's going to be all right, exactly because it's different. But since I tend to find my feet with a pairing by reading ALLLL THE FIC EVER, I am understandably, like I said, freaking the fuck out.

Seriously, laria_gwyn is a saint for agreeing to look this over for me, after all the flailing we've been doing about Clint/Phil recently. I am just hoping it isn't entirely unsalvageable -- because in one way or another, this is at least a facet of how I see the characters. The question remains whether anyone else will see them like me (mostly being the BAMFest of BAMFs, and stupidly infatuated with each other, and alllll the pining (this is where I'm really working myself up), and Clint obsessing over Phil's snappy shirts-and-ties -- totally trufax, guys, check this out:



Y'all know my obsession with suit!porn, y/y?)

So yeah. Taking a leap is fucking scary. Here's hoping I fly instead of crashing. >.>;;

Oh god, one a.m. again, why. /0\ I fail at being an adult so much.

Comments

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

To be fair, my opinion may be influenced by the fact that neither of the men do much for me on top of me seeing Coulson in a non sexual way. But I'm glad that you all are having fun with them! There are enough Avengers pairings to go around. :D

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

No, dude, seriously, that is the beauty of this fandom -- there is something for everyone! :D Gah, no, that's just me, I tend to get WILDLY enthusiastic about new pairings, to the extent that I get ALL EXCITED and tend to stop filtering myself. I'm just thrilled to have another pairing to flail madly about! :D :D I'm certainly not trying to shove it down peolpe's throats -- but I AM EXCITE that other people like them as much as me! :D :D And of course, ALL THE OTHER PAIRINGS, TOO. *_______*

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

I never thought you were shoving it down any throats. But Ki did pull me over to the convo. :D

Trust me I get the excitement, I read some Loki/Thor fic that was a revelation over the weekend so now I'm like...okay that too. It's like they keep hitting me with more pairings!

And I'm so excited to have Avengers excitement on my flist because it is such a happy place. :D

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

I always worry that people will take something I say as something against them, god I am so fucking sensitive sometimes. It's a curse. But yeah. /relieved

ALLL THE EXCITEMENT, SERIOUSLY. \0/ And yes, such a happy place! :D :D I remember when H50 was such a happy, positive place. :( It's nice to have it again!

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

I am pretty hard to offend so unless you tell me my ships are stupid I'm pretty good. And I like your excitement as mentioned. It makes me smile :D

I remember when H50 was such a happy, positive place. :( It's nice to have it again!

Agreed. I feel like I am escaping into comics fandom more and more to avoid the bitterness in H50. Nothing chains my muse like negativity but with the Avengers there is so much happy!

I just wish I had more Avengers people on my flist. We need a good friending meme or something. The one I participated in didn't lead to much for me. :(

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

God, no, that would be appalling. I'll never understand people who do that. :/

Yes, I know. All the bitterness is turning me off faster than any writers' cock-up could. I just, I love the boys SO FUCKING MUCH, but ATM I just need to take a break from it all. I'm hoping I'll be able to come back in force, though! Here's hoping, I guess.

DUDE THAT IS A FUCKING SPECTACULAR IDEA. LET'S DO IT. I'll make up a meme as soon as I'm done with this event that I'm actually very late for, Jesus, gotta run, but TOTALLY SPAM ME WITH IDEAS FOR QUESTIONS, PLEASE. If you'd rather, you can email me at nhris18 [at] gmail! :D \0/

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

YAY! Will do!