Rambling post is rambling

[sirona_fics]

So kitsune_tsuki posted this pic:



AMD IMMEDIATELY ALL I COULD THINK OF WAS STEVE AND DANNY SNUGGLING AND BEING IN LOOOOOVE. WHAT HAS THIS SHOW DONE TO ME, WHAT. D:

In other news, spent most of yesterday squeeing over Inception fic and planning my next three tattoos. Before you go O____O WHAT, they're all snippets of text I want to get done. One of them I've been thinking about for a long time, but yesterday I finally got to reading weatherfront's latest, and the message just kind of slammed into me all over again, and suddenly I had my words. I want "life is in the small things" on the inside of my left arm, near the wrist. Then I want a quote from Neil Gaiman on my right ankle, "fragile things can prove remarkably difficult to kill". Because they are, and I need the reminder to NOT BE AFRAID ALL THE TIME, like I am -- of failure, of getting my heart ripped to pieces, of things not working out, of taking a leap. And then I want the first three lines from the most inspiring poem on writing I have ever read, "So you want to be a writer?" by Charles Bukowski. I know I keep going on about him and it, but seriously, I've never seen/heard/read something on the process of writing that resonated so completely with me. They're "if it doesn't come bursting out of you/ in spite of everything,/ don't do it.", and I want them on the inside of my right arm, running up it, not across.

Here's the thing. I'm a little concerned about having the ones on my wrists done, because they would always be visible, no matter what -- I always wear long-sleeved tops with my sleeves rolled up, no matter the time of year/ what the top is, shirt, sweater, whatever. So I keep thinking whether that might influence my employment options in the future. But I've thought and thought about it, and honestly, if I was to get them done, I only want them in those places. I've also thought about getting custom-made leather wrist sheaths that button/zip over the tattoos so they're not visible. Thoughts? They're not going to be huge chunks of black ink, just thin-ish lines in a certain font (small caps Antigua).

And quite apart from that, I still want Errol (sorry, tiny image) on my right shoulder, tail curled around the letter N, for baby Nicky. But this one is colour, much bigger and more complicated than the lines of text, and so it will require a bigger time investment.

Actually, just found out I didn't end up getting that job I was talking about at the start of the week. Via text message. No, I'm not bitter, why do you ask? SO FUCK IT. I might just go get those text lines done this weekend. I'm so tired of this shit. /sigh/ I wish for once something would fucking go my way. I keep telling myself that if it hasn't happened, obviously it wasn't right for me, and I'm waiting for something else to come along (it's happened to me far too many times before to discount it as just random reassurance), but right now? I just want to punch someone in the face. :/

I was going to use my happy!Steve icon for this post, but see re: punching someone inna face. Possibly not the best news to get in the middle of a morning shift with not much sleep the previous night. Deep breaths, Neve.

Comments

[stardust-made.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about the job (for selfish reasons, too).:/ And I'd want to punch someone in the face if I got a text msg with that kind of news, too. Since when has it become legit to text people things that officially really matter, i.e.: 'You got the job.', 'You didn't get the job.', 'I'm breaking up with you.'? (The last happened to someone I know--I thought she was joking when she told me.)

I am sure a better job will come up.x You don't want to work for people who have so little respect for other people's feelings that they wouldn't bother to call them or at least send them a normal letter/email.

And on a lighter note, the power of slash is mighty--I saw the picture and my first thought was "OMG, let's see who is Sherlock and who is John!" :)

[tattoo-kink.livejournal.com]

"OMG, let's see who is Sherlock and who is John!" :)

LOOOL

As if THAT ever was a question. Look at them. Sherlock is the one on the left (and it's not just because it's the larger owl). *giggles*

<333

Edit: One cup of coffee is not enough to write proper English early in the morning. *snort*

[stardust-made.livejournal.com]

Yes, that was my verdict, too. The right one just looks sort of smallish, and cutish, and Johnish.:)

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

:DD It's ike a Rorschach test for who's your OTP at the moment! :D

I am pissed, no lie. But I'm still determined to move there, so no worries, love, we shall still meet in the end! :D Last time I was there, my friend mentioned she knows of a job who might be a good fit for me, so I'll ask her about it when I see her this Saturday -- I've been invited to a garden party for her birthday! :)

Well, you know what the employment situation is over here right now. :/ I keep hoping, though. Surely something will come up? /sigh/ I'm kind of tired of hoping with no return of investment. I mean, text message?? What even, right? I'm not winding myself up, right? /huff/

[stardust-made.livejournal.com]

Right! I had a friend who was in a similar situation like you--and heard from her last night that she'd got a job last week and her first week was really great. I'm saying this because I know how when shit is happening to me, I lose perspective and feel like that's all there's ever been and will ever be for me--so it's sometimes useful to hear RL examples that there's an end to it.

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you! Happy weekend!:)

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

I know. It's so easy to lose perspective. I'll feel better tomorrow, no doubt, and maybe even this afternoon, but right now it's too fresh to get some distance from it. :/

Happy weekend, darling! ♥

[tattoo-kink.livejournal.com]

That pic is just lovely!

WOW. That is quite a lot you want to get tattooed on you... says the woman with her whole leg and back inked. *snort*

I have a Japanese tattoo on my (whole) right underarm and I'm working in an office. It's hard to tell if a further boss will allow it - but usually it shouldn't be a problem anymore.

I love quotes to pieces, but I was always too chickenshit to get one, cause the font should be a little bit bigger. You have to remember that your body is changing and the tattoo will change too. *ggg*

Hopefully you'll show us the final result?!! *hinthinthint*

HAPPY WEEKEND, SWEETIE!!!

♥

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

There was this article on the BBC news site ages ago about this girl who worked in an office and had arm tattoos, and she was given the choice of either getting fired or wearing a cardigan all the time. AND she worked in a call centre and no contact with clients. I guess it depends on the employer.

I'm thinking font size 28. I honestly don't want them huge, but I know that a smaller font won't cut it, either. I printed them out on a sheet of paper, cut them out and imposed them on my arms, and yeah, that's about the right size. Might go a size bigger on my ankle, though.

As for Errol, I know I want him. I do. But that one's a bit of a bigger investment, so I don't think I'll get him now. I might in a few months when I go in with my sister (we've made plans to go together).

I will indeed share the final result! :D I might just go with the ankle one for now, and think about the wrist ones some more. And, of course, there's always cover make-up.

[gehirnstuerm.livejournal.com]

Boo, sorry about the job. That's some shitty news to receive via text message!

I love the lines you chose for your ink! I guess it depends on the employer whether or not the visible ones are going to be a problem, but honestly? I don't think that snippets of text in such a delicate font should give you much trouble, unless you're work in a bank a similar environment. *ponders*

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

I'm just so mad about this. The guy called me out of the blue exactly a week ago, said he was desperate for someone to start as soon as, so I called him on Sunday to let him know I would be willing to take the job. So then he wants to talk face to face, which is okay, but he's travelling for meetings all week. And then today, this. I just don't get messing someone around like this, I guess.

Well, I work admin for a hospital at the moment, that's what I'm concerned about. I don't think it's going to be a problem with working in an office, but there might be. I guess I might get them higher up my arm, so even when I've rolled up my sleeves, half of it might stay hidden. This needs further pondering before I commit, me thinks!

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

Ugh, job things D:.

Re: tattoos, I get what you're saying about the arm ones. I wanted my second done on my arm for the longest time, and then I lost my job, and I thought 'what if I had it and people shunned me in interviews because I have a visible tat?' Because I work in marketing and I am dealing with clients. I changed my mind and found another idea for a placement that I really love, in the end. Now I've been saving money to get it done and I should be able to soon, I am so so excited about it :3.

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

Job things. ):

Exactly what I mean, re: arm tattoos. The other option is one or the other of them over (or just under) my collarbone, on the left, right over the muscle. I rarely wear vests, and all my work necklines are either narrow swooped or V-necks, and there might end up being nothing more than a curl of ink being visible. (Confession -- nothing drives me to distraction like the hint of a tattoo on someone's body. Mmmmmm.) And then I'll have to think of a place for the third one. Upper arms are out of the question, I really wouldn't want a tattoo there. My shoulders are (will be) already taken. My lower back is a little scarred, and anyway a single line will get completely lost unless it's huge, which I don't want. Tough dilemma is tough.

[delicatale.livejournal.com]

I'd love to go for the collarbone as well, but I wear low cut things on a regular if not daily basis, so it's a bit hard (I don't have much to flaunt but I have boobies! \o/!) for me to go there. I'm getting mine on my shoulder - the quote is to start on my neck and go on over the curve of my neck, along my shoulder to the curve of my arm. I'm small so it's not that much to cover. So when wearing usual shirts/cardigans you'll be able to see bits, but not necessarily all.

Other options are ribs, hips (the back or sides anyway, I still don't understand girls who get hip tattoos and don't realise if they get pregnant it'll stretch), legs.

[their-darkness.livejournal.com]

My first reaction to that picture:

OMGOOOOOOOD.

Yes, really, that.

Also, obviously that Steve/Danny fics needs to be written, yesterday.

Re: tattoos. I'm actually getting one myself on the inside of my wrist (hopefully this year, I'm still thinking a bit about the design). I was also a bit hesitant to get one on my wrist for the same reasons but then I figured "this is the 21st century, and I'd rather have a meaningful tattoo on my wrist than a tramp stamp over my ass."

SO I SAY GO FOR IT, BB.

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

THEY ARE TOO ADORABLE, IT IS TRUE. <3 OBVIOUSLY WE NEED AN STEVE/DANNY OWLS IN LOVE FIC.

I am really torn re: the inside of my wrist. On the one hand, I want the one I plan for the inside of my left wrist desperately. On the other hand, I don't want to have to cover it all the time. I'll keep thinking. It depends on what job I manage to land myself next. I think I might leave that one for last, make sure I'm ready for it.

[law-of-tarts.livejournal.com]

Any job that sends you a text message to inform you that you are not being hired is a job you do not need. Consider this a lucky escape. Because that shit is ridiculous. Keep your chin up, sweetie, and read some healing porn. Alex would want you to.



Also, those owls are adorable.

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

I am coming to that realisation myself. Probably was a lucky escape in the end!

ALEX DARLING IF YOU COULD POSSIBLY SEE FIT TO SUPPLY SAID PORN, I WOULD BE MOST GRATEFUL. <333

Those owls are Steve-owl and Danny-owl cuddling, and nothing could possibly convince me otherwise. ♥

I am now going to a) watch some film/tv show I've been meaning to watch for ages; b) eat a fuckton of ice cream; c) read that fic by thegrrrl2002 that everyone's been reccing. As of now I officially do not give any more of a fuck.

[gothikmaus.livejournal.com]

Aww, those owls. I just keep looking at the pic and grinning like an idiot. :3

Text message? What the hell.

Tattoos are always tricky when you're looking for a job, you never know how employers may react to them. My tattoo is in a hidden place (under the nape of my neck), so that's not a problem, but I guess it's different with visible ones.

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

THEY ARE THE MOST ADORABLEST!

Yeah, pretty much. :/

I have one on the back of my left shoulder, which is hidden all the time, and really I would much rather my tattoos stay covered. And yet I want those particular ones where I can see them... Idek. This needs quite a bit further thought. I've sort of come around to the alternative of putting one of them to the left side of my collarbone, over the muscle. I think it'll fit nicely there. I need to make an appointment with my tattooists, though, and I don't think I'll manage it this week. Otherwise I totally would get at least the one on my ankle!

[shinysylver.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about the job.

And about the owls...you aren't the only one. I saw it and said "Steve and Danny!" too.

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

As people have pointed out, this may have been less of a bad thing than a lucky escape, if that's how they treat their employees...

Totally owl!Steve and owl!Danny cuddling, amirite? :D

[alamo-girl80.livejournal.com]

OWLS ARE LOVE! I have a ridiculous adoration for owls.

Sorry about the job. But the tats, yeah, I've seen it effect job interviewing here. I'm in zumba class with a girl who has both arms completely "sleeved" and I heard her talking about how she couldn't get a good interview. Dunno if she was covering them up or not.

I've sorta wanted a second tat - I have one on my lower back - but I've always kinda wanted something small on my shoulder. I doubt I'll ever cowgirl up and get one though.

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

AREN'T THEY JUST! OWL LOVE! ♥

That was my concern, basically. I mean, I don't want big tattoos, just small text ones, but still. It could affect interviewers' perception. I think I'll try to come up with places that can be covered up. My first one is on the back of my left shoulder, and I very rarely uncover it. At the moment I'm thinking to the left of my collarbone, over the muscle. I think it could fit nicely there.

[alamo-girl80.livejournal.com]

I love the pieces of text you've chosen too. Especially the Bukowski phrase.

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

The whole poem is astounding. One of the most poignant pieces of writing I have had the pleasure of reading.

[alamo-girl80.livejournal.com]

It IS glorious. I just read the entire thing. Makes me feel so unworthy.

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

Makes me feel like I'm flying, soaring, because this is exactly how writing works for me. It bursts out, and there's no stopping it, not until the story is told. And to see someone like Bukowski endorse that... WELL. Makes me feel like King Kong on speed, ngl. I read it every time I need the reassurance that no, I'm not in fact insane, or a freak, or a strange little person for feeling this way about my writing, my stories.

[alamo-girl80.livejournal.com]

Ha! Yeah it does that to me too, but not all the time. Sometimes I am possessed and sometimes, it has to be wrung out of me.

But hey, the freak club has cookies. I like my freak club membership.

[ember-firedrake.livejournal.com]

So sorry about the job, bb. *hugs* I hope things pick up for you in the future.

Re: tattoos, whatever you decide to go with for your placement, I really like the ideas you have planned. I've got a scarlet pimpernel on my left shoulder, and I really want to get more at some point.

THAT OWL PICTURE, OMG. Funny thing is, on my Tumblr I've been reblogging TONS of owl pictures, because they remind me of Rodney McKay/McShep. But I can obviously see the Steve/Danny adorableness as well. :DDD

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweetheart. It's been pointed out that I might have had a lucky escape, if that's the way they let me know.

Yay! I've been thinking about those for some time, and I really love the messages. I want them in places where I can be reminded of them all the time. Possibly the option I might go with for one of them is to the left of my collarbone, over the muscle. That way it'll be covered, but still visible if I want it to be.

I was saying to stardust_made earlier, the owls are like a Rorschach ink blot test about which is your OTP right now! :D Because she saw Sherlock and John in it! XD SO ADORABLE, NO MATTER THE PAIRING! <3

[kitmerlot1213.livejournal.com]

Leaving a text message is a rather gutless way of telling someone bad news. You're well rid of them--who wants to work for such classless people?

I think the first step in getting a tattoo is knowing what you want, so you're already halfway there :):)

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

Pretty much exactly this. When they can't show a simple courtesy for someone who's gone out on a limb for them, actually working for them would have been hell, I imagine.

I tend to overthink stuff pretty much ALL THE TIME, so this is no different! :D I definitely know what I want, though. I'll probably be making an appointment with my tattoo artist soon! \0/

[souliesoul.livejournal.com]

Er, hi! Delurking to talk tats!

It does depend on the employer, but I think things are getting better with regards to that now that tattoos are more mainstream. I have one just below my neck on my back, and it's partially visible with most of the tops I wear. I plan on getting more; wrist tattoos also, but two different circular eternity symbols instead of delicate text. Although, my wrists also have visible self-inflicted scars, so I decided it didn't matter if I got the tattoos there since I already have marked myself there. I also think that if an employer rejects you because of tattoos, then they're probably not someone I want to work for.

Wow, text message? That's a sucky way to tell you.

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

That is a very fair point you make about the kind of employer I would want to work for. I hadn't really thought about it that way! I am pretty decided on moving the one from my right inner arm to my left trapezius muscle, just under my collarbone. The one on my left inner arm I might think about some more, but unless I can come up with a place for it that I'm happy with, I think I'll just get it done there.

Text message indeed. I was pretty insensed, but it was probably for the best that it didn't work out, if that's the way they treat their potential employees.

[helenvalentine.livejournal.com]

TEXT MESSAGE? Sorry, that is BALLS. No doubt about that. :/

The tattoo thing, that is really exciting though. I keep hemming and hawing about my next tattoo because it is word-related. I would say from experience, maybe choose your quotes, write them down on a piece of paper and stick them on your mirror or something. Something where you'll see them every day and have to think about them. I carried around my first tattoo design in my purse for about nine months before I got it done, and it really helped to solidify it in my mind, and make sure that I wasn't going to get sick of it before I got it done.

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

Well, I talked about him to a friend of mine, who works in that area, and she said he's an absolute arsehole, so lucky escape!

Those quotes are very important to me, and they're always going to mean very much, so I'm pretty happy with having them on me forever. I did print them out on a piece of paper and imposed them on the places I wanted them at, and I'm pretty happy with them! \0/

[zolac-no-miko.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry you didn't get the job, love! D:

I didn't know you have ink. What tattoo/s have you already got?

[sirona-gs.livejournal.com]

Thanks, babe. Apparently the guy is an arsehole, so kind of a lucky escape there.

Re: ink -- I've made a post about it! :D Find it here.