sirona_fics: (plot? what plot?)
2015-02-10 01:50 am


Here it is, the dreaded Masterlist! Sorted by fandom, pairing and date (latest first). All these fics can also be found on AO3. A side note on transforming my work -- the short statement here is that I WOULD BE BEYOND HONOURED. I am an enormous fan of podfics, and I can only dream that someone would find my things worthy of recording. Likewise art -- seriously, if anyone wants to do anything for them, I would mostly be floored that anyone thinks them worthy of prettying up. So there is that.

Avengers 'Verse )

Harry Potter )

Hawaii Five-0 )

Inception )

Metanoia )

Naruto )

Sherlock )

Teen Wolf )

X-Men: First Class )
sirona_fics: (nat thanks you for your cooperation)
2013-01-01 06:02 pm

Writing meme 2012

Total number of fics: 44

Total wordcount: 341394 (Gotta say this is MUCH easier now we have AO3 stats! :D)

Total number of fandoms: 6

My favorite story of mine this year: Hmmm. That's always a terribly tough question. I think it's a toss-up between I've got you under my skin and Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet. I'm the proudest of how those two turned out.

Story most underappreciated by the universe, in my opinion: Hmmm. Possibly Here comes your man? Could be I posted it right before Marvel Big Bang went live, and it kind of got lost in the middle of all those awesome long stories? IDK.

Most fun story: Again, it's a toss-up between From Russia With Love and (I can say this now, because reveals are imminent) the Yuletide treat I wrote, Have a Very Merry 00 Christmas. That last one was a delight to brainstorm and write, and the first one, with Bond meeting Bucky -- no comment necessary. :D

Most sexy story: Well. According to the comments I got for them, it's a toss-up between So turn around and I'll pick up the slack and It's in the water, baby. Although In the backseat put up a very good fight, too! :)

Story with single sweetest moment: Personally, I adore the moment in My heart was wrapped up in clover where Clint turns up to make things right. :')

Most unintentionally *telling* story: Oh, god. I think it really is Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet. So much of myself went into writing this story, I was incredibly nervous posting it. :) Runner-ups have to be And I'll cross oceans like never before and I swear I'll drive all night just to buy you some shoes.

Fic that shifted my own perceptions of the characters: Science and Progress (do not speak as loud as my heart), I think. That's the story that made me stop and think and have a revelation about Steve that's now firmly into head canon territory. :) Also, I will ask you to open my door from your side, which I wrote with [ profile] delicatale, for a story that made me look at all the characters in just a slightly different way. I still want to write the follow-up to that so badly.

Biggest disappointment: Hmmm. I don't think I had one? I was disappointed that I've got you under my skin didn't do better? I expected it to do better. Maybe I'm just too involved in that story to see it objectively? IDK.

Biggest surprise: I think it was how extremely very well And I'll cross oceans like never before did? I did not expect that at all! :D 911 Kudos, over 25,000 hits. I'm just ajhkfhdsf over it! :D I am also extremely gratified by just how amazingly well Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet is doing, since like I mentioned before, it was maybe the most personal story I've yet to write in that fandom. :) Just thrilled about it! <3

Hardest story to write: I think that was I've got you under my skin, which is why I wish it had done better. It took me weeks to get going, I kept getting stuck, I think I re-wrote the plot outline about six times, drew plot maps. Many of you will remember me tearing my hair out over it. And then I ended up writing it in a single week when I unblocked myself (largely thanks to bloody Bucky Barnes, who ended up taking over. :DDD).

Easiest story to write: Quite possibly it was Only his ring finger knows? It took me maybe 45 minutes to write, and it's ended up one of my most popular stories this year. :)

This year's theme and the story that demonstrates it most: Oooh, that's a tough one! Well, I have to say, this year was an Avengers (and Clint/Coulson) year through and through. So I'll have to choose a Clint/Coulson story -- and I can't think of anything better than Conditional Value At Risk. It illustrates everything I adore about this fandom: boys in love, pining, how well they fit together, as well as showcasing my favourite things: alternate universes, coffee shop AUs, Clint and Phil being themselves, a sweet kind of rightness. :)

All in all, it's been a great year to write! :D Didn't write as much as 2011 (which was truly an INSANELY good writing year), but I wrote more complex, more thought-out stories? I'm so happy with how my writing is progressing. And I'm so blessed that my stories have brought me so many amazingly wonderful people for friends! <3 I love you guys so much. :')

I'd be really curious to see which of my stories people thought would fit these categories, if not the ones I've listed? Do you agree/disagree with me? Please do tell me! <3
sirona_fics: (charles/erik jazz hands)
2012-09-08 10:47 am

Ugh writing is hard

Post-coffee shop AU and Avengers RBB, I find myself at a bit of a loose end as to what to focus on writing next. Hence, my first post in like 6 MONTHS OR SOMETHING WHAT. /0\ Must admit, have found it easier to just stick to twitter recently, what with all the writing. Really gonna update that masterlist after I post this. >.>

So. Anyway. Time to get a vote in, because apparently nothing is screaming loud enough to get written right now. Thus, a poll! Help me out, guys! <3

A Poll!
sirona_fics: (nat thanks you for your cooperation)
2012-06-20 11:49 am

Joss Whedon is our leader now. A.K. A. FIREFLY INTRO: AVENGERS STYLE


sirona_fics: (nat thanks you for your cooperation)
2012-06-14 12:01 pm

"Write All The Shit/ Mind In The Gutter" Week

It's been a strange old place in my head these past few weeks. Plot bunnies are breeding like... well, bunnies, but I can't seem to settle down to writing any one of them. It's incredibly, hellishly frustrating.

So. [ profile] 17pansies and I decided that, in honour of moving into my new flat, I should declare this week WRITE ALL THE SHIT WEEK, with a side helping of MIND IN THE GUTTER WEEK.

What that entails: basically, giving yourself a break. Newsflash: Fandom is supposed to be FUN!! (Shocking, I know. Sometimes I forget that one, too. /0\) We do this shit because we LOVE it. We love writing, mixing, arting, podficcing, vidding. So take a project, any project; it doesn't have to be big and important; it doesn't have to be 5763895642389 words long. It just has to be FUN. Write something. Anything. Can be silly PWP or delicious angst/romance or just a slice of life, a situation that catches your eye. This ties in with the High School AU challenge from last month, too. :)

The purpose of this week (which will run until Sunday next week (24th June, incl.)) is to get you to write again. Kick-start your muse. Use it to finish a project you've been working for a while; use it to get all the writing/bunny-related frustration out of your system; use it to start that one project you've been meaning to for a while. No pressure, just the mindset that this coming week, you are going to WRITE, GODDAMN IT, AND NOTHING AND NO ONE CAN TELL YOU NOT TO, BECAUSE YOU DESERVE TO LET OFF SOME STEAM, TAKE TIME TO YOURSELF AND LET THE WORDS COME. This week is an amnesty for any and all projects. Pick one. Pick a dozen. Go back to that bingo square you signed up for ages ago. I know I'm totally guilty of letting all the plot bunnies bury me alive, unable to pick one and just write it till it's done. /0\ (Usually my muse decides for me, picks one and rides me hard until it's done, even as I curse him under my breath. He's been a bit quiet of late, though. WELL, I'M ABOUT TO WELL AND TRULY WAKE HIM UP. >:D)

So my goal for this week is to a) finish something I started SO LONG AGO IT'S ALMOST EMBARRASSING TO ADMIT TO, and b) pick a bunny and write it. Pick your own goal; set yourself a challenge. THEN GET PRODUCING ALL THE DELICIOUSNESS EVER. <33333

Feel free to band out ideas in this post; talk to each other, chat, bounce thoughts, basically ENJOY THE FUCK OUT OF YOURSELVES. FANDOM IS FUN. It's CHOCK-FULL of amazing people who think outside the box and delight in helping other like-minded people. Let's make it a week of celebrating all that we love about this amazing thing we've got going. Like I mentioned, I'm moving into my new flat later today, and basically I can't think of anyone I would rather rock the joint with for a housewarming party than you lot, every single one of you. AND SINCE I CAN'T SHIP YOU ALL OVER, HOUSEWARMING PARTY ON MY JOURNAL!! \0/ THE BAR IS OPEN, PICK YOUR POISON. ♥♥♥
sirona_fics: (clint/phil)
2012-06-14 11:36 am

[Fic] Tag Me, Clint/Phil

Ugh FINALLY cross-posting this.

Tag me (6395 words) by faviconsirona
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (2012)
Rating: Explicit
Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Clint Barton, Natasha Romanov, Phil Coulson, Tony Stark, Steve Rogers, Bruce Banner, Thor, Darcy Lewis, James "Bucky" Barnes
Tags: Alternate Universe - College; Alternate Universe - Art School; Obedience Kink; paint; Age difference kink; Pining; Romance; Get Together; Possessiveness
Relationships: Clint Barton/Phil Coulson
Summary: It's the last class of the semester, and Phil Coulson has a special assignment for his students.
Notes: Inspired by this video, which has been making the rounds these past couple of weeks (NWS). No sooner had I seen it than this popped up in my head, demanding to be written. Warning for hints of Daddy Kink, though nothing explicit enough to warrant the tag. Huge thanks to Lanyon for the beta and the incredibly insightful comments, as always! <3 And also all my ♥ to Foxxcub, who demanded I write this and bribed me with awesome writing and held my hand and encouraged me all the way through. Now with incredible art by Essouffle!! *_____*
sirona_fics: (bucky gives me all the feels)
2012-05-21 08:26 pm

The Pan-Fandom High School AU Fic Challenge


sirona_fics: (charles/erik jazz hands)
2012-05-21 08:14 pm

I live

I've been such a flake about hanging out here this past month. /0\ What with finishing two blasted Big Bang fics, setting up an RBB with some awesome people, a week in England (WHICH WAS SO AMAZING OMGGGGG), packing up to move, and starting a new job, it's been mental. I'm totally going to try to post more often, though I have no idea how much time I'm going to have free from the new job -- it's looking to be a busy one. In the meantime, at least writing is going well? /0\ SO MANY FICS I'M WORKING ON RIGHT NOW, HOLY CRAP. :D Twitter is basically taking up all my energy left over from writing and other RL stuff. I haven't even ventured on tumblr for weeks.

On the plus side, have now sort of semi-officially moved out, which is THE BEST NEWS EVER. \0/ Started the new job today, and my flat ought to get freed up at the start of June. CANNOT. WAIT. To have my own place finally, to set it up and make it mine. (THERE IS EVEN A TINY BACK GARDEN. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH SO MUCH WIN. *________* Pics as soon as they happen!!) So if I'm scarce around here in the next month, you'll know why... /0\ Apart from fic. I anticipate a lot of that as I blow off steam. :D

...Anyway. To make up for the radio silence, watch out for the next post! :DD
sirona_fics: (bucky gives me all the feels)
2012-05-13 11:31 pm

[Fic] She threw us straight into the river, Bucky/Peggy, NC-17

She threw us straight into the river (4772 words) by faviconsirona
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (2012)
Rating: Explicit
Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Peggy Carter, Steve Rogers/Tony Stark
Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Peggy Carter
Summary: Peggy and Bucky get to grips with certain thoughts Bucky's been entertaining with regards to Steve and Tony.
Notes: Enormous thanks to the wonderful [ profile] lanyon, for her invaluable help with this story, from betaing to title- and tag-wrangling. ♥ This follows directly after the events described in I've got you under my skin. It could stand on its own, but it won't make as much sense without having read that. Title from Jason Webley's Ways To Love. Please heed the tags.
sirona_fics: (clint/phil)
2012-05-13 11:21 pm

[Fic] I will ask you to open my door from your side, Clint/Coulson

Title: I will ask you to open my door from your side
Author: [ profile] sirona_gs and [ profile] delicatale
Artist: Tgda / [ profile] tgda
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~22,000
Type: AU, Romance
Characters/Pairings: Phil Coulson/Clint Barton, Phil Coulson/Pepper Potts, past one-sided Peggy Carter/Steve Rogers
Warnings: (brief, non-graphic) mentions of past child abuse/neglect, deals with the break-up of a long-term relationship (no infidelity, though).
Summary: Phil's car is firetruck red, and she's his pride and joy. She deserves the very best of care, something Phil can't give her by himself -- he's the CFO of Stark Industries, not the experienced mechanic she needs. This is a project that needs outsourcing -- straight to Steve Rogers' garage and its preternaturally gifted restorer, Clint Barton.
Notes: Many thanks to [ profile] laria_gwyn for her wonderfully thorough beta job and her invaluable help with dealing with the more sensitive aspects of this story.

Link to fic masterpost: On AO3
Link to art masterpost: On LJ | On Tumblr
sirona_fics: (superboyfrields)
2012-05-11 09:20 pm

Kissing meme ficlets!

So [ profile] foxxcub is hosting a Kissing Meme!! Which is AWESOME and everyone should go play. I have committed three fics:

I am ready, I am fine (1270 words) by faviconsirona
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (2012)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Clint Barton/Phil Coulson/Natasha Romanov, Clint Barton/Phil Coulson, Clint Barton/Natasha Romanov, Phil Coulson/Natasha Romanov
Characters: Clint Barton, Natasha Romanov, Phil Coulson
Summary: Post-Avengers OT3 Fix-it fic. [SPOILERS FOR FILM]

Whenever I fall at your feet (593 words) by faviconsirona
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (2012)
Rating: General Audiences
Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Steve Rogers/Tony Stark
Characters: Steve Rogers, Tony Stark
Summary: He leans back further, goes boneless, trusts Steve to catch him like he always does, always will.

These fragile bodies of touch and taste (983 words) by faviconsirona
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (2012)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Clint Barton/Phil Coulson/Natasha Romanov, Clint Barton/Phil Coulson, Clint Barton/Natasha Romanov, Phil Coulson/Natasha Romanov
Characters: Clint Barton, Natasha Romanov, Phil Coulson
Summary: Budapest isn't where it all started -- but it's a start, all the same.
sirona_fics: (bucky gives me all the feels)
2012-05-09 01:20 am

[Fic] Three Day Eventing, Bucky/Steve/Tony, NC-17

When I saw this pic of Sebastian Stan, what could I do but write this??

Three Day Eventing (1828 words) by faviconsirona
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (2012)
Rating: Explicit
Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers/Tony Stark
Summary: Millionaire playboy Tony Stark needs horse riding lessons. His two instructors are more than willing to give him other lessons, too.
Notes: For [ profile] radioaches and [ profile] aliassmith, for encouraging this. Huge thanks to [ profile] lanyon for betaing this and suggesting the title. ♥
sirona_fics: (superboyfrields)
2012-04-24 10:57 pm

[Fic] I've got you under my skin, Steve/Tony

Title: I've got you under my skin
Artist: [ profile] ashei
Author: [ profile] sirona_gs
Link to Art: At Ashei's LJ and Tumblr
Link to Fanmix: Yep, I put one of those together, too, because I can't write without music. Can be found here in this post.
Pairing: Steve/Tony, hints of Bucky/Peggy
Rating: R
Warnings: discussion of bullying, mentions of homophobia, strong language, ALL THE TONY FEELS IN THE WORLD.
Word count: ~39,000
Summary: Five times Beijing 2008 Olympics Gold Medalist Tony Stark thinks it's going to be no more difficult a job to get ready for London 2012 than what he has just achieved. That was, of course, before Coach Fury came to visit, and offered him a once-in-a-lifetime chance to be a part of something much bigger than himself. Swimming AU.
Disclaimer: I don't own them. If you recognise any lines in this fic, they're not mine, either -- I have borrowed some from a couple of TV shows and movies. Also, I know nothing about competitive swimming. Every instance of getting something right is entirely due to [ profile] authocracy, who has been the most amazing help throughout, and without whom I would have scrapped this fic altogether. Every mistake you spot is mine and mine alone.
Notes: Written for [community profile] c_im_bigbang's RBB challenge. This fic would certainly not exist without the amazing support of a huge number of people. [ profile] laria_gwyn, who betaed this mindblowingly fast, with her usual spot-on eye for detail and unfailing support, who talked me off ledges and held my hand throughout. [ profile] authocracy, for swamping me with swimming information until I was rolling gleefully around the 10,000 words of research that zie put together for me, wondering just which juicy tidbits to include. [ profile] someidiothasice for letting me CAPSLOCK at her in the middle of the night and listening and offering excellent suggestions that kept me sane. For all my people on Twitter, who listened to me yammer on and on about this bloody fic that took over my life, and not only didn't tell me to shut up once, they also threw all kinds of inspiration at me in the hopes it'll help. This one's for all of you, you amazing, perfect human beings. ♥
sirona_fics: (superboyfrields)
2012-04-24 10:48 pm

[Mix] I've got you under my skin

This is the mix I put together for my Steve/Tony [ profile] c_im_bigbang Reverse Big Bang! No cover, sadly, but I hope you enjoy it nonetheless! :)


01 The Jezabels - Hurt Me
02 Fever Ray - Keep The Streets Empty For Me
03 Kings Of Convenience - Stay Out Of Trouble
04 Regina Spektor - Hero
05 Adele - Set Fire To The Rain
06 Florence + The Machine - Shake It Out
07 Sammy Davis Jr - Something's Gotta Give
08 Adele - Daydreamer
09 Mumford and Sons - Little Lion Man
10 Gotye - Hearts A Mess
11 Ryan Adams - Desire
12 The Mountain Goats - Sometimes I Still Feel The Bruise
13 Stereophonics - Superman
14 Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down
15 Frank Sinatra - I've Gt You Under My Skin
16 The xx - Shelter
17 Ryan Adams - Wonderwall
18 Christina Perri - Arms
19 Imelda May - Big Bad Handsome Man
20 Bright Eyes - First Day Of My Life

sirona_fics: (let's poke it with a stick)
2012-04-20 04:00 am
Entry tags:

Top Ten AO3 Fics Meme

4am is possibly not quite the right time to be putting together a meme, but damn it, I can't sleep. :( So. Top Ten fics on AO3 by hits:

1. First Impressions, XMFC, Charles/Erik. (14809)
This would be the P&P rewrite that I obsessed over last year, and wrote in something like four days flat. To say I'm surprised this is my top-read fic (and by such a margin) is an understatement. But I guess everyone loves Lizzy and Darcy and Erik and Charles, and putting the two together -- it was practically necessary. Lord only knows when I'll finish the sequel to that. 40K in, about another 20K to come. One day. *sigh*

2. I want you to want me, H50, Steve/Danny. (11070)
My H50 Big Bang, and a whopper of a story. I'm quite certain it's one of the best things I've ever done, and will ever do. I'm damn proud of this thing. <3

3. Happiness is Homemade, H50, Steve/Danny. (8027)
This was co-written with the wonderful [ profile] delicatale, and undoubtedly this good because of it. This was our joint H50 Big Bang, and an utter joy to write.

4. All my heart I will lay down precisely at your feet, H50, Steve/Danny. (7782)
I'm surprised by this. This story, I adored writing it in its entirety. It's ridiculously self-indulgent, straight-up Harlequin trope, which is a huge weakness of mine. I guess I'm not alone! :)

5. A million ways to be a good one, H50, Steve/Danny. (7502)
Again co-written with [ profile] delicatale; we enjoyed ourselves immensely while imagining what Danny's parents would be like if they ever came to visit. <3

6. I'll see your heart (and I'll raise you mine), XMFC, Charles/Erik. (7503)
I'm actually shocked to see this here. I'm forever convinced that I botched up this story terribly. This is another one of those self-indulgent AU Romances, and yep, I did have a blast writing it, even if the edits on this were horrific. :( I'm thrilled to see people reading it, no lie. <3

7. And I'll cross oceans like never before, Avengers, Clint/Coulson. (6855)
So far my favourite thing that I have written this year. Utterly self-indulgent and unashamedly full of allll the feels. <333 Delighted to see people reading it!

8. A little bit of your taste (in my mouth), Avengers, Clint/Coulson. (6020)
Again co-written with [ profile] delicatale (I sense a pattern here :D). This was pretty much the moment when I fell into this pairing head-first, without looking back, because come on. Once you write a coffeeshop AU for a fandom, you're pretty much in it for the long haul. :D

9. A Strange Fear, Sherlock, Sherlock/John. (5800)
It's... strange to see this here. This was a short story that slammed into me when I read that one line in another story (you'll know the one; it's the thing that starts the ball rolling in the first place). I guess this dug pretty deep, and that's why people can relate to it -- because we all have that one fear, deep inside. :)

10. To Sleep, Perchance To Dream, H50, Steve/Danny. (5732)
Another short and sweet story, from my early days in the fandom. I'm surprised to see it so high up, but then again I have always gotten wonderful reviews for it, so. <3

Oooh, what a nice, even showing! I am very pleased, and thrilled in the extreme to see people reading my stuff at all, let alone in such numbers! <3333 I LOVE YOU ALL.
sirona_fics: (clint/phil)
2012-04-14 10:16 pm

Sirona's Epic Clint/Coulson Fic Rec List!

Sooo. Almost an entire month ago (because I fail so hard at things right now) I promised ironfries that I would compile a Clint/Coulson fic rec list for hir, so I could incept hir into the wonderful world of the sniper who loves his agent and the agent who can't (well, okay, he can, but he'd rather not, it would be so boring) live without his sniper.

In order to achieve this, I have solicited the help of a number of excellent people, who have gifted me with the wisdom of their experience. Thus, I present to you my rec list of awesomesauce C/C fics that I have read, re-read, adored, and bookmarked the hell out of.

Now, it's basically a given that I'll have missed something. A bunch of things, even. So, please, feel free to use the comments to add to this list -- because sure as hell, there's no way I'll have read everything that is out there; rather, it's pretty much an iron-clad guarantee that I won't have.

The agent and his sniper )
sirona_fics: (Default)
2012-04-14 06:56 pm
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Nicked off [ profile] radioaches and [ profile] delicatale.

One little compliment can make you feel great. So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. Once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind you how great you are.

Comments screened, anon posting is on even though I'd rather see who you are (so I can glomp you, mostly). ♥ Now go do it yourselves so I can love you.
sirona_fics: (clint/phil)
2012-04-11 04:37 pm


God, I haven't posted in ages. I'm sorry, I'm just, overwhelmed-busy. Been away for the weekend to gran's, just came back, and of course no internet there. I've only got the strength to log onto twitter at this point, sadly. :(

It's baby Nicky's birthday today!! \0/ Little boy is one year old! <3 It's been a strange, amazing, sad, tough, awesome year. I'm happy to still be around, and I'm happy to have all you guys around with me. ♥ /reflection

In other news, the Cap_IM RBB is KICKING MY ARSE. Happily, found out today that I had my deadlines all mixed up -- in fact, it's not this Friday (13th April), but rather 24th April! WHICH IS A GINORMOUS RELIEF, LET ME TELL YOU. There's so much of this story yet to tell, it's all I can do at the moment to keep up.

Jesus, I'm sorry, I'm just, so tired right now. Drove back from Sofia this morning, after faffing around on twitter until almost half one last night, so hardly enough sleep. Haven't been sleeping all that well, either. Fucking full moon. :((( So all I want right now is to take a nap, but I suspect baby Nicky should be awake soon, so IDK how feasible that is. :)

ANYWAY. I want to make a nice long-ass rec list for Clint/Coulson, because IT IS AMAZING AND THERE SHOULD BE MORE PEOPLE INTO IT. :D And also because it would be so much easier to point people to it when they ask me. So I guess time to compile some fics! :D Tell me, you guys -- which ones are your favourites? Which ones should definitely be put on this list? That would make my job tons easier. <3

I hope everyone's doing as well as possible! ♥
sirona_fics: (Default)
2012-03-25 12:44 pm

Food for thought

I read this fascinating article today (seriously mind-blowing, I heartily recommed you give it a go) -- and now I would like to talk about it. :)

Okay so I have maybe been having A LOT OF THOUGHTS since I read this. Isn't it fascinating what the brain perceives as 'real'? This is The Matrix all over again -- what is real? Is it real just because you can smell and touch it? Or is it just as real when it's only our brains that perceive it? After all, what is 'real' if not impulses that the brain interprets? So who's to say that by reading, and writing as we do; and by having deep, meaningful relationships online with people we have never met, that they aren't real? That we aren't just as loved by them as by people we have seen, smelled, touched? God, I could read 48754974 words on the subject. This ties in neatly with the AI thoughts I've been having of recent -- sometimes I wish I'd had the foresight to go into neuroscience while I was at uni, because I could talk about this shit FOREVER.

Gives a whole new meaning to 'lost in a good book', not to mention living vicariously through so-called 'fictional characters' -- because aren't we, all of us, fictional characters to other people? I mean, really? Certainly we are to sociopaths, but why is it easier to insult or bully someone online, for example, as it is to do it to someone IRL, even though that person online is just as real as the person sitting next to you on the train, only they're sitting a continent away from you?

I have, for the past five years, lived my life through fictional characters so much more than in reality. And anyway, who the fuck are people to tell me that to me, this isn't just as real as their spouses they come home to every night? Who's to say that I haven't been in a relationship for the past eight-odd years, when I am in one every night when I open up a book, or my 'to-read' list of fic bookmarks? It's really all a question of perception, and how we choose to interpret our own experiences. Who's to say that this isn't my real life, rather than a state of fugue while I wait for it to begin?

...Wow, I appear to have A LOT OF THOUGHTS on the subject. But it's just so utterly fascinating to me. Descartes ftw! :) By all means, if you find this as fascinating as I do, come talk to me! :)